I know there are several very real and pretty complicated barriers to overcome if I want to accomplish my 'dreams.' Just as many, if not more, are perceived rather than real boundaries and I've certainly let fear of failure and "how-it-should-go" stall me. And, I obviously can get stuck in a pity party.There's also the … Continue reading What if it were enough?
I wrote 620 words over the past, oh... five days before I took a look at my recent blabberings and realized I was repeating myself once again. More of the self-comparisons between real and typed life, more explicit confessions of not knowing why I'm doing this, being a constant over-thinker and over-achiever, not being happy … Continue reading Oh yea, I took a trip last weekend
Another piece of 'art' courtesy of yours truly. Let's set the stage. I've currently got over $60,000 of student debt to pay back before I die. The reasons for that amount are their own story. Had I got into nursing school my freshman year of college, or applied to OT school after my junior year … Continue reading This Twisted Web
Metaphor of the day: fitness. I did some math and for the past two (business, because nobody's open on the weekend) weeks, I've been on the phone for an average of 40 minutes a day trying to get that damn medicine I spoke of in my last post. Probably longer since I'm not including the … Continue reading Realizing just how out of shape you are
The medication that's taken 6 months of discipline and lifestyle changes to get me to where I've been, suddenly isn't available.
Seeing as I now write for The Mighty and The Odyssey in addition to this quiet corner of mine, I'll probably be cross-sharing more. Hopefully it's not seen as laziness; if I write something, I now have three disjointed arenas I'm considering, and I'd like to try and have all my original work at a … Continue reading When Post-Grad Isn’t What You Pictured
Doom and gloom seems to be the recent theme, so here is some sass that I wrote for my latest post on the Mighty: How do you feel about disabilities? Because I have one. Whether seeking employment or a date, if you have an illness, condition, or disability, there’s always the question of when you should “disclose” … Continue reading Some sass about disability
What do these two things have in common? First, my realization that narcolepsy had turned into this cold, lonely, and heavy weight attached to me. And second, there's a whole lot I don't want others to see in regards to how much I'm struggling with this darn thing. At my follow-up appointment with a … Continue reading Chronic illness and icebergs
Since I've been diagnosed with narcolepsy, I've not taken the time to fully process it. Sure, I experience it everyday. I live in a constant state of "I'm tired," without knowing what that really means. Is my tired really more tired than your tired? Aren't we both as tired as we feel? I shouldn't be … Continue reading Narcolepsy is everything I’m not
This will be short, I think. Originally, I was all gun-ho about this timeline I had in mind. Both for my life and this lil' blog. Go to college, ride for equestrian team, have sparkling GPA, get an undergrad degree, go to grad school, get a job, travel the world, make monies, buy a pony, … Continue reading On goals and narcolepsy